First of all, you are implying that missing “church services” due to poor health is a sin that must be forgiven. This view is not supported in Scripture. You don’t say exactly what your health problem is but if it is serious enough to stay at home, the Lord surely knows all about that and He sympathizes with you in your affliction and He would have you to come to Him in prayer for healing and comfort. We read in Hebrews 4:15-16, “For we do not have a High Priest who cannot SYMPATHIZE WITH OUR WEAKNESSES, but was in all points tempted as we are, yet without sin. Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need.” The Apostle Paul wrote of a man who was very sick and through prayer God had mercy on him and healed him. In writing to the saints at Philippi he said, “Yet I considered it necessary to send to you Epaphroditus, my brother, fellow-worker, and fellow soldier, but your messenger and the one who ministered to my need; since he was longing for you all, and was distressed because you had heard that he was sick. For indeed HE WAS SICK ALMOST UNTO DEATH; BUT GOD HAD MERCY ON HIM, and not only on him but one me also, lest I should have sorrow upon sorrow” (Philippians 2:25-27). We learn here that all the believers in Christ that knew this man were sorrowing for their fellow-believer and through prayer “God had mercy on him.” I trust there are those in the church meetings where you attended are missing you, sorrowing with you, and praying for you to be healed by the Lord (if it is His will) so they can see you again and enjoy Christian fellowship with you.

You mentioned there were “other circumstances” that are preventing you from attending meetings of the church. If I knew what those were, I would try to address those issues too from a Scriptural point of view. Illness is one thing, but sometimes “other circumstances” are not valid reasons for missing out on the fellowship of believers. I’m not judging you, for perhaps your circumstances are valid reasons and for whatever reason you chose not to tell us exactly what they are. The Lord knows all about them too and I will pray for Him to minister to those needs as well as your health issues.

I want to close by saying I was encouraged by your opening words, “I love to go to church.” Scripture exhorts us in Hebrews 10:24-25, “And let us consider one another in order to stir up love and good works, not forsaking the assembling of ourselves together, as is the manner of some, but exhorting one another, and so much the more as you see the Day approaching.” We should indeed love attending the meetings of our local church fellowship so we can “encourage one another to show love and to do good works.” The “assembling of ourselves together” is so important so we can continue to “exhort one another in view of the coming of the Lord.” WE NEED EACH OTHER and “so much the more as you see the Day approaching!” We read that as soon as the church was born on the Day of Pentecost (see Acts 2:1-4, 47) they began to have regular church meetings. “And they continued steadfastly in the apostles’ doctrine and fellowship, in the breaking of bread, and in prayers” (Acts 2:42).

I pray that the Lord will show mercy on you and heal you of your health issues so you can resume regular fellowship with the saints. And I pray that your “other circumstances” that are also preventing you from attending will disappear. Of course, I end these prayers by saying to the Lord, “Thy will be done.” If, for some reason, the Lord chooses not to heal you, I pray you will still be able to have fellowship with believers in some way, perhaps by having them over for Bible studies and prayer. Another way one can join the saints for fellowship is through Zoom Meetings (we have joined Zoom Meetings with a church fellowship for the study of God’s Word and for prayer at times).  (DO)  (663.1)